In fact the shirt is a little big. I never have had the shirt be a little big... this shirt has always been too small. I am liking the new me...I want to keep up the new me. I like seeing the new changes. It feels so good to see actual results and not feel like the weight is coming off and I am the only one that knows...it is visible now. Everyone can see now. Of course to someone that has never met me before I am still horrible overweight and have miles to go...but I have come very far. At least for me...I know some of you are thinking thirty-one pounds doesn't seem like much...but to put this into perspective, I have a biological disorder called Polycystic ovary syndrome. --(when I was diagnosis in 2001 the insurance companies didn't even know how to classify this...they tried to put it under cystic fibrosis, completely different)-- I have battle my weight since puberty and had not much luck at it. This same disorder has taken my ability to have children and causes me to grow hair on my chin...not very attractive in either case. It really makes me feel like less of a woman in most cases...
My husband does a great job of overlooking the hair...every once in awhile he will say something...but he is very polite...ish. The ability to have children there is nothing I can do about it...the weight gain...is probably the biggest problem...most women who are unable to get pregnant with PCOS it's because they are too heavy. In order to have both Catie and Alex I had to loose large sums of weight...since I was younger the weight came off easily and it was no trouble for me to loose 45-50 pounds in 4-5 months...this time...I am older and my body just wouldn't co-operate. When the doctor recommended we see a specialist Nathan and I decided we were not going to go that route this time...we had already did that with both of our other two...and have two beautiful children and thought that maybe God was giving us a sign that this time we were suppose to do something different.
Things get very different the summer I started having migraines...I don't know what happened...I don't know if my weight it a level that my body couldn't hold...or if it was stress. All of the sudden I was having migraines that were life altering...and I didn't know what to do. We worked with our family doctor to correct the problem. That didn't help. I prayed for relief. That didn't seem to help either. I started to believe that my life was going to be forever changed by this headaches. Then I was sent to a doctor that actually helped me. He put me on some medications that changed my life...one has actually helped with my weight loss...it decreases my appetite and also decreases the intensity of my headaches and frequency. This made my life so much easier to live...I still had break though headaches...but now they were getting under control and I was starting slowly to loss some weight. This didn't happen fast....it was over a long period of time over maybe 9 months...and the whole time this is going on I was battling the insurance company to get 2 medications that the doctor prescribed for those break though headaches...one was easily fixed.
I called one day when I was in a particularly good mood and was very nice and pushed though till I got a nurse in the pharmacy department that actually suffered from migraines herself...she was very helpful and got one of the prescription pushed though right then. The other one took lots of negotiation and pushing and calling and more calling and more calling...the moral is never quit calling...if you really need something!~ It took 9 Months.
So I am looking for a workout buddy, someone who can go to the gym with me a couple times a week...when Nathan can't...his schedule is so wonky and the kids keep us so busy that there is just no way we will be able to workout together...any takers???
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