I am about to have a real full blow panic attack...I just signed the letter and sealed the envelope returning this important piece of paper!   I can't believe I am doing this!  We worked so hard to get this piece of paper and now we are just going to mail it back to them...we didn't even use it...not even once.   My mind is whirling and racing all at the same time!   I don't even know what to do in this very moment!  This is surly going to kill me...I guess whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
I'm gonna be freaking wonder woman!

Still going to do this IN Kansas

I should start at the beginning...WE ARE MOVING TO KANSAS!

We are finally getting the chance to move back home with family.   This is huge!  We have been here four years now and as much as we love Bloomington/Normal we really Kansas people.   In the coming weeks we will be packing a few things and letting the movers handle the rest.   Nathan negotiated movers....YEAH!   I am so excited about that!   We will be tying up all the loose ends here and finishing up school and packing up clothes, the dog and any remaining little bits.   

One big question that has loomed in everyone's minds and out of a few mouths is what is going to happen with Foster Care??? 

OMGosh  Our license does not transfer in anyway...first of all...we are only licensed in the state of Illinois.  So we have to return that to the great state of Illinois. Boooo!   So we pray and think and wait and see what we are going to do...we have a few friends here that we have consulted with on the issue and one thing that has rung true is that we still feel called to do what we have been doing.  I have said almost in passing that maybe we haven't gotten a call to this point and I mean we haven't gotten ANY calls to this point because God doesn't feel like we are suppose to be a three child family.   One very wise friend told me last night that just because our child isn't here in Illinois doesn't mean that they aren't in Kansas.   

I pondered that all the way home...and when we got home God had answered my thoughts and prayers in a very direct way...we got our very first call.  

We could not accept the child and told the caller but it was the answer I needed in that moment.  God is telling us we need to pursue our dream of becoming adoptive parents from the foster care system.   God couldn't have said it more clearly if He (or She) had stepped right in front of me and shook me and said snap out of it!   It is all going to be ok!   I have all the answers and you will be just fine.  

Thank you to my wise friend...and Thank you God!

http://www.theforgotteninitiative.org/

Happy New Years

Resolutions....something I don't do....because if you make a resolution you have to keep it right?   I had to explain resolutions to Alex last night for his homework for school.  Yes he had homework over the holiday week...strange I know...but whatever.  I explained that a resolution was a promise to ones self and a promise is something that we don't break.  I try not to make promises...they have a way of getting broken and I don't like breaking promises.   So to make a resolution just seemed like a crime.   So I am not making a resolution.  

Have I ever made resolutions before...sure!  I have made the silly ones I'm not going to eat any chocolate this year, I'm going to loose 50 pounds, I'm going to spend less money on clothes and my favorite...I'm going to workout more...none of them seem so out of line except...really I'm not going to keep any of them!

I do not eat as much chocolate as I use to...I have lost a lot of weight this last year, we spend lots less on clothes, and you guessed it...I now work out.   I don't know how all that happened...my guess that I didn't feel the pressure of having to live up to a resolution.

As we waited for the year to wind down we had a pretty quite evening last night...Alex played with Legos and Catie created a new masterpiece.  It was so nice to have my little ones at home safe and sound.  Nathan was home by 8:30 and we watched the ball drop on youtube via 2012.  I showed them pictures of celebrations from around the world.  They went to bed and we watched the ball drop in New York and then we went to bed... aren't we old.



The last thing I want to include is that while still are waiting for the phone call I pray for the safety of my third child.  No matter where that child is...I know that God is with them and I pray that God is comforting them.   We have not given up hope or changed our minds or even changed our plans...we just are waiting.