Saturday, June 4, 2011

God's time

It's so strange at the beginning of this week I was grieving not being able to have another baby and the child I watch just proved why I don't need another child in our house.  We were so close to loosing the house and today we got a higher offer from the buyer the bank get to look at it again.  My kids gave me the time I needed to catch up on my sleep.  Life looks so much better on this side of the week.  Yeah it was rough but God is working it all out and it will be ok!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

clarification

I should our clarify our house in Leavenworth is going to likely be foreclosed on.  The bank has countered that we should pay 5000 in addition to the 37500 the buyer has put up towards the house,  We can't afford that and will likely loose the house in foreclosure.

Dealing

I thought I was doing ok with the loss of not being able to have any more kids...I am concerned that loosing the house in foreclosure is going to give me a migraine.  My disappoint is mine alone in that I know I haven't been faithful in my giving my problems to God.  I know that I have latched on to these problems and now we are in a place that I'm not sure we are going to get out of any time soon.  I am  really worried about dropping into another nasty depression.  It's far too easy for me to internalize these issues and not deal with the real problem.  It's gonna help that I won't be able to be at home in the dark all summer.  With doing childcare I am required to get out and be a caregiver as well as a good mom.  I hope that I can stay afloat.